Addiction - August 7, 2006
According to Wikipedia:
"The term addiction describes a chronic pattern of behavior that continues and is perceived to be hard or impossible to quit at any time. It is quite common for an addict to express the desire to stop the behavior, but find himself or herself unable to cease".
I like Wikipedia, its informational. I like books too, they're cool, and science was second to history in school subjects I adored (English last, go figure). But I wonder, how much of our world is can be explained by science and by consciousness? I only ask this because, in my time, the best and most useful conclusions and revelations I've had have come from the gut, using observation, suspension of disbelief, a little channeling and some deus ex machina when I'm really desperate for perspective.
I recently posted about my addiction to various substances. It struck a chord with many of you, and I got a slew of email and messages in my various inboxes, the usual, a few "You suck's" some "God bless your honesty's" and some confessionals from people looking for redemption for being human, lord knows why. I wanted to answer them all and start a dialouge, but didn't have the time, and won't for a while. I did read them, every one of them, and with the exception of the "You suck's," there was the most remarkable pattern.
They went like this: 1) Thanks for the story, 2) I connected with it because I have a problem with [insert substance], 3) I'm not sure what to do about it and am struggling, and 4) I love how honest and free you are about your messiness. 5) I wish I could be like that.
Odd, mostly, because the story was all about subconscious exploration of my ephemeral bits and pieces, coupled with my willingness to admit I was fucked up. Sad, because here were a lot of people telling me they didn't know what to do about their addiction, following that up with "I wish I could be a mess and just get it all out of me." Each one of the struggling souls who emailed me was violently exiting an empirical world that just wasn't getting it done, but in secret. Privately.
Q) For what reason are you clinging to the guise of respectibility?
That's my dialouge. Answer it however you wish, or not at all, but you might want to think it over. I bet you're not clinging for the reasons you think you are. There's a little shaman in all of us.
Posted by The Bunny at 1:03 PM
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